Hard Fidelity
Br Christopher O’Brien, LC
Guests who visit our chapel almost invariably mention the kneelers. Yes, the kneelers. And not because they’re particularly comfortable. Actually, the contrary. You can see the deep indentations caused by the knees where brothers in prayer have knelt year after year after year. In some of the front-most pews, the cushions have almost completely disappeared, leaving only hard wood. It gives them a character of their own.
When a guest mentions these kneelers, he always points them out as evident signs of the piety of the brothers here. Perhaps so. Still, I always chuckle, at least interiorly. Just because we’re in the chapel doesn’t mean we’re in ecstasy. Au contraire. All too often as I kneel in prayer, I find myself daydreaming, thinking about my next class, or wondering what dinner holds in store. “The habitual difficulty in prayer is distraction” (Catechism 2729). And I don’t think I’m much of an exception to the normal experience in this case.



